No, not the Sandra Bullock movie where she is in rehab, that's how many days I have left until the wedding. Four weeks................................Four more Sunday church services...................................Three more worship team practices...........................One more MOPS meeting.................This is it.
It is getting so close now.
The bachelor and bachelorette parties have come and gone.
Its crazy. Everything is happening so fast now.
I am SO CRAZY EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!
Note of warning, I may be extra cranky the next, um........FOUR WEEKS! I got a lot of things running through my head so I wanted to pre-warn everyone that I might snap at you.
Wow,
I don't even have words to describe what is going on inside me. My heart is so full of joy. (My head full of lists)
So I just keep reminding myself that this IS happening, and it's going to be fun.
Yea, I am excited!!!!!!!! :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Why?
Why is life so hard? Why do we have to go through the things that come our way.
My family has been going through a lot lately. My mom and her siblings had to make a though decision last week. They put my grandma in an assisted living facility. She has been there five days now. My mom took my grandpa to see her today. I asked her how it went and she said ok. My grandma hugged my grandpa and cried on his shoulder. My mom said they had dessert together then when to sit on the couch and watch TV. I guess my grandma told my mom "I don't like what you did to me. I don't like it here." My mom said she cried and went to talk to the nurse. My grandma is the only resident in the Alzheimer's wing right now. Well they stayed for quite a while and when they left my grandma again hugged my grandpa and cried. I started crying when my mom told me while she started to cry again too.
It just makes me sad to think that there are times when she remembers things and people and she cries. My family is so emotional and we get it from my grandma.
I also cried tonight cause as my mom was telling me that she missed her mom I was thinking about when I am going to be in that situation and I have to put my mom somewhere. I am close to my mom and don't want to have to do that. I am so proud of my mom right now. I don't know how much this separation from her mom kills her, but I know it does and she doesn't show it that much. She tells me she is sad for my grandma, and that makes me sad.
I know that one day it will be me going through what my mom is going through. I just hope I can be brave.
So why? Why do we have to be so emotional? It's a blessing, and it's a curse. I really hate it right now.
My family has been going through a lot lately. My mom and her siblings had to make a though decision last week. They put my grandma in an assisted living facility. She has been there five days now. My mom took my grandpa to see her today. I asked her how it went and she said ok. My grandma hugged my grandpa and cried on his shoulder. My mom said they had dessert together then when to sit on the couch and watch TV. I guess my grandma told my mom "I don't like what you did to me. I don't like it here." My mom said she cried and went to talk to the nurse. My grandma is the only resident in the Alzheimer's wing right now. Well they stayed for quite a while and when they left my grandma again hugged my grandpa and cried. I started crying when my mom told me while she started to cry again too.
It just makes me sad to think that there are times when she remembers things and people and she cries. My family is so emotional and we get it from my grandma.
I also cried tonight cause as my mom was telling me that she missed her mom I was thinking about when I am going to be in that situation and I have to put my mom somewhere. I am close to my mom and don't want to have to do that. I am so proud of my mom right now. I don't know how much this separation from her mom kills her, but I know it does and she doesn't show it that much. She tells me she is sad for my grandma, and that makes me sad.
I know that one day it will be me going through what my mom is going through. I just hope I can be brave.
So why? Why do we have to be so emotional? It's a blessing, and it's a curse. I really hate it right now.
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