Sleep? What is that?

So it's 1:38am and I just started getting tired. I guess mentally preparing to stay up late and scrapbook works!

Ask and you shall receive!

As I head off to bed I usually grab my laptop, check my e-mail, check my myspace, surf around and maybe play a game or two of Scramble. But as I surfed myspace last night I came across one of my old friends who just got a myspace because she moved away with her husband and wants to keep in contact with her family. So all these memories of us flooded my mind. Me, her and one other girl were inseparable for some time. We did everything together. We got Best Friends Forever necklaces and talked about our weddings, you know girls stuff. But as life likes to come in and crush your dreams the day came when we parted ways. It has been seven years now and she is married and now lives in Arizona. I just started remembering all the fun times we had and started to cry. I asked God, "why did you take her away from me?" My thoughts became to tell me of all the people who left a mark on my life and are now gone. I even made a list of those that had left and those that are still my friends now. Lets just say there were only two on the friends now side. I cried, and cried and prayed. I ask God what I should do. Should I contact her and see where that goes? Should I go to another church's young adults group? I finally told God, "if you want me to contact her, keep putting her in my mind over the next few days. Well He answered my prayer sooner than I could have guessed He would. Yeah, it all came down to the sermon this morning. It was about loving God with all you heart, soul, mind, strength. But what grabbed my attention was the mind. That I choose what I dwell on. If I am sorrowful, it's my fault. Right then God told me that I had a wonderful time with the people He placed in my life. That there is still life to live for Him. That I can look forward to all the new people He will place in my life for whatever amount of time He chooses. I may never have the "friend for life" I dreamed about, but God will be that. He will never leave me like all those people in the past. He loves me. That's all I need to focus on. To love Him with all I am. To trust Him. And as much as I still miss the times I had, and remember it all, I don't have to have sorrow in my heart. I can still look ahead and say "Thank you God for all the awesome people you have placed throughout my life".
Thank you God for answering my prayer so fast. Thank you for using your child to bring that message to me. Thank you for never leaving me.

I don't like being sick :-(

There's nothing like being home when you are sick. I always hated getting sick on trips and just wanting to be home. Well I was sick all day yesterday. I was at home which was nice but I had the flu. I can handle being sick pretty well, but not the flu. I HATE getting the flu. Yesterday was pretty horrible. What I hate so much is the nausea. I HATE feeling like I am going to throw-up. I would rather die. I went to bed early and got up twice. I finally got to sleep around 3am and slept good till about 9am. I woke feeling pretty good this morning. It's 12:45 and I haven throw-up yet. So I think the worst of it is over. The other think I hate about the flu is when you feel better you don't want to eat but your stomach is growling. So I am sipping on Sprite today and hopefully I will eat tomorrow. At least I don't feel like throwing-up today!

Princess for a day

Today Jesse and I went to Carmel / Monterey. We got there pretty early so we started off with a few trails. The view was amazing.


We went shopping on Ocean Avenue and I got a purse. We wanted to go on the 17 mile drive but the AT+T AM Gold tournament was going on the it was closed. So we headed back to Monterey and had lunch on the beach. After that we found a good place to sit and watch the ocean for a bit.


On our way home we stopped for diner at a Basque restaurant. We had a family style meal with lamb and chicken (I had the chicken (poor lamb :-( )). There was soooo much food we couldn't eat it all.


Jesse treated me like a princess and I sure felt like one! It was an amazing day!
(Thanks Babe!)